Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Insurance sucks!!!

Ok well it doesn't suck...my $400,000 hospital bill from March was paid all but about $2300, so insurance companies DO have their uses. However, I'm in desperate need of my bipolar meds...I got my family doc to prescribe them for me a week ago today, and we've been fighting with the insurance company to get them filled ever since. They want us to do mail order...i didn't have a large enough prescription for mail order...so had to get the doctor's office involved...finally got it all worked out today and the insurance company says I'm not in their computer! They filled these meds for me last year!! GAH. So it'll take at LEAST two weeks before I get my meds.

Thank the Lord I found enough from last year to fill in until then, but man, if I hadn't been able to find them...I've REALLY wanted to cut myself a lot lately.

I've had a lot of bad thoughts lately. Its getting harder and harder to deal with things again...maybe because of the cancer and almost dying a few times back in March and April? Maybe now its finally starting to hit home? I don't know...I had a REALLY positive attitude back then...its how I pulled through, that and God's grace. If we can pull our heads above water, I want to go back to counselling. I really miss it. I've felt often lately that I need to go back into Pine Grove...but man I REALLY don't want to go back there!!!

Anyway...I haven't slept in a couple nights...going to try to get some rest since I have to go to the heart specialist tomorrow (will it never end?). I guess I'll post a health-related post one of these days when I feel like whining lol.

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